days

life is a crazy mess...


confusing,


happy,


awful,


painful,


funny,


amazing,


stupid,


boring,


hopeful,


mysterious,


exciting....


but most of the time, it's just ridiculous.


and maybe one day it will all make sense.....but I'm not holding my breath.

shooting stars

 "****** is listed as no longer in a relationship"

Is it bad that those little words on a screen can make my whole day seem so much better?

Is it bad that her broken heart doesn't make me feel worse?

Is it bad that what could be someone else's worse day ever, just became my best?

All that occured to me was that He wasn't with her anymore....

Is it bad that I want to ignore her feelings completely, so I can finally be happy for once...?

All I know is that my hands are shaking, and I don't even know what's going to happen yet....

Kutless- What Faith Can Do

This song has been stuck in my head for days.....and maybe I'll eventually get around to posting the whole long and complicated story that brings this song to mind. eventually.


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Everybody falls sometimes,
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know

Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining


I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do



It doesn't matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try

Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing


I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do



Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!



I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!



Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise....

pinky promise.

I’m not giving up.

I may step back,

pretend not to care,

But I’m not giving up.

I learn from my mistakes.

Just because I decide to grow up,

and try to move on

doesn't mean anything's changed,

I’m not giving up.

I’ll laugh at your jokes,

I’ll say hi in the halls,

I’ll ignore the obvious,

Because I’m not giving up.

This is me being your friend,

And that’s it.

This is me being responsible,

Even if I don’t like it.

I promise not to get involved,

I promise not to act jealous,

I promise not to make it awkward.

But I’ve made a promise to myself, too…

I’m not giving up.

failure

I am a complete and total idiot.

I should have waited to say anything.

I should have thought things through more.

I should have just left things alone, maybe none of this would have happened...


but whats the point in life if you don't take risks?
I guess we can say that this experiment into the world of being completely honest was the opposite of helpful.

some things are just not meant to work.