away

I really want to write a song, but I can't seem to put all this stuff in my head into words.

what I really need is a long vacation somewhere far away.
I really want to visit Ireland.

but I wouldn't be able to leave my friends
they keep me sane
even if everthing if confusing and complicated and stupid when I'm here.

most of it is my fault.

I make myself crazy and paranoid with all the excuses...and wishes....and plans...and hopes.... 
I come up with.

what I really want is just to sit in one place, without anything to worry or think about for a really long time.

but that's not going to happen
especially not now.