I am not at all sad to bid farewell to 2010.
sure, it had its good moments, but it was packed with way too many things I wish could have happened differently.
There are certainly things I'm gonna learn to let go of, and a few other things I'm going to really go after this year- I'm not letting this slip through my fingers.
I've never really been one for New Years resolutions, but I have a few for 2011:
1- get my license and a car (finally)
2- learn how to be on my own- I'm graduating from high school (and simultaneously from community college) this year, and I don't think I'm ready for the real world quite yet...
3- understand myself better- I thought I knew what I wanted, but everything has gotten very complicated lately, and I have no idea what I'm doing anymore.
4- I know everyone says this, but I really want to lose 15 pounds.
5- this one's a secret. but I know it, and that's what matters :P
So there you have it, my demands...I mean goals for 2011.
oh, and I really want Lady Gaga to go away. That would make my year :P
a job
a car
an iPod touch...my little 8 GB nano just doesn't hold all the music I like
a nook color, although I did get a few books I wanted...
...that magical feeling Christmas used to bring, when I was younger
but of course, we can't have everything.
“I am not alone at all, I thought. I was never alone at all. And that, of course, is the message of Christmas. We are never alone. Not when the night is darkest, the wind coldest, the world seemingly most indifferent. For this is still the time God chooses.” -Taylor Caldwell
“If only, if only…”
The moon speaks no reply,
Reflecting the sun and all that’s gone by.
Be strong, my weary wolf;
Turn around boldly.
Fly high, my baby bird—
My angel, my only.
“If only, if only,”
The woodpecker sighs,
“The bark on the trees was as soft as the skies.”
While the wolf waits below, hungry and lonely;
Crying to the moon,
“If only, if only…”
-Holes
This poem describes my mood perfectly.
If only you knew...
I really want to write a song, but I can't seem to put all this stuff in my head into words.
what I really need is a long vacation somewhere far away.
I really want to visit Ireland.
but I wouldn't be able to leave my friends
they keep me sane
even if everthing if confusing and complicated and stupid when I'm here.
most of it is my fault.
I make myself crazy and paranoid with all the excuses...and wishes....and plans...and hopes....
I come up with.
what I really want is just to sit in one place, without anything to worry or think about for a really long time.
but that's not going to happen
especially not now.
"Count your blessings instead of your crosses;
Count your gains instead of your losses.
Count your joys instead of your woes;
Count your friends instead of your foes.
Count your smiles instead of your tears;
Count your courage instead of your fears.
Count your full years instead of your lean;
Count your kind deeds instead of your mean.
Count your health instead of your wealth;
Love your neighbor as much as yourself."
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"May the saddest day of your future be no worse
Than the happiest day of your past."
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Irish Blessings are my favorite things in the world.
